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I use the word "god" in the following only to have a common ground - a word where people can understand as to what I am referring. Personally I believe that we have no concept of what this power is - that made all of this. And I certainly do not believe that we have the words to describe what one cannot understand..
I see this force in the universe as something that is within each of us, as well as around all of us. Like a grape vine. We each have a grape within, yet the vine is what ties it all together and nurtures us.
Each person can get closer to god easily by getting more in touch with their innermost self. But it is a search. A journey that is not always easy, but is always rewarding. I came to this belief through many experiences in my own journey, and especially trying to figure out what the exact thing was that caused me to feel certain things at certain times or sense things I should not be able to.. Instinct is god reacting within us. Emotion is the spirit of god expressing its joy and sorrow for what we see, do and what befalls us.
Science can say a certain chemical is what makes us feel happy, but they cannot define the mechanism that makes the chemical flow. What turns the emotional spigot? To me that is the "grape" or piece of god within.. The spirit.. It is the battery in the automobile.. Without it the automobile cannot function. So this truly undefined and not understood thing, this spirit, or soul, is the presence of the power of the being. I cannot see any other explanation.
A friend of mine feels that the force cannot be involved with everything that occurs and involved with all of our lives. I do believe that this force is there every second of out life and that nothing is coincidence..When I marvel at the intricacies of life, of even a blade of grass I realize that I have no way of measuring a mind that could come up with all the parts, tie them in together and create a chain of what eats what to survive.. Mans mind cannot begin to grasp the enormity of what we are a part of.
With each person I encounter I pause and ask what is the reason for this encounter and I ask for guidance that I do my part well. I believe that it is our duties to make sure that everyone that crosses our path is better because of it.
A lot of my life was spent believing god was this mean thing that allowed cruel things to happen to me.. Certainly if there was this merciful god, then I was not at the mercy end.. As a child, I remember telling god how much I hated him.. How I deserved better...
But today.. I can see things a lot differently..
In 1979 the power that is stepped into my life right before I committed the biggest mistake of self destruction that I ever could have. As time passed I began to get stirrings within. And today I feel the presence of god within me and around me. I am lucky to not have to believe by faith alone... I can see reasons for things that have occurred in my past. Bizarre events that I cid not understand at the time, ones that made absolutely no sense.. Some were very dark and painful. Then out of the blue days or weeks or months later the same thing would arise again, but this time affecting someone else that was in my life.. And I could help them because I could see a side of things they could not, because I lived the experience..
As to the agnostics or non believers.. Well the big bang theory is all fine and dandy, but that would include matter. And ultimately we have to have a view of what created the first IOTA of matter - what made the bang in other words.. I also believe that there are things smaller – much smaller than the atom.. And that our scientists have not yet the tools to discover them yet..
God is a great part of my every day existence.. I do not condone nor condemn religion. I condemn only those that do not conduct their own search.. For they are ultimately relying on the word of man. A pastor. or even a scribe that translated the books people worship upon. I believe that each must find their own answers… And that there is no one right answer.. Each may interpret the same thing in a different ways.. Sometimes it is not the answer that it is important, it is the walk to it…